I grow up in a dysfunctional family where there was alot of arguements, alot of fights, alot of secrets, just seen so much when I was a kid that a child shouldn’t see, i grew up not trusting no one sometimes not even family, grew up with alot of negativity around me, maybe thats how i became a fucked up child. I grew up with if you trip down get yourself up no one else is gunna be there to get you up, no one is gunna be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. Showing affecttion in my family is rare, arguements are daily. After all the shit i been thru, I still try believe in hope and faith, i try stay postive even when the evil thoughts in head try to control me. .
man am just so fucked up in the head.